"All is in a man's hands and he lets it all slip from cowardice, that's an axiom. It would be interesting to know what it is men are most afraid of. Taking a new step, uttering a new word is what they fear most."- Raskolnikov in Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoyevsky
One of the greatest books ever written, Dostoyevsky's masterpiece gives us pause to think. So what is it that we are most afraid of? Is it trying something new or the fear of failing at something new? What made us all try the PCP? I believe that simple word-of-mouth is not enough for us to have come this far. Perhaps seeing past PCPers achieve results led us to the water. But what made us drink? What made us take the plunge? Tomorrow marks fifty days since the start of this journey. This is no half-assed attempt, but instead a full on commitment. What made you take up the challenge?
In my case, I haven't yet arrived at the answer. Until I started the PCP, I considered myself pretty healthy. I thought my food choices were good, I was avoiding fat and processed sugars, and I was getting what I then thought was regular exercise. So I guess I can't say that I started the PCP because I wanted to get healthy. At least, that wasn't the be all and end all. Sure, I had fat I didn't mind losing, and I still do have it. But I wonder what it was that was driving me? Now it is more of a self-fulfilling cycle, where the progress we make becomes both the driver and the continuous goal. But what got us rolling? Again, if it was simply weight loss, there were many alternatives from which to choose. Why this journey? I don't know yet all my own answers, but I am glad I chose this one.
Tonight, I got the night off cooking, which was great. Girlfriend cooked up a PCP-friendly chicken cacciatore that was pure veggie and chicken. It was delicious.
Hmmmm.....for me it was to get healthy as I knew I wasn't eating good. My diet was mainly sugar believe it or not. My dad also died from juvenile diabetes at age 56 & my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer 9 years ago (been fine since treatment), so I knew the genes in my family are not great. A third reason for me: I'm standing up for my sister at her wedding June 11, 2011 and I sure wasn't going to stand in front of that crowd looking like I did on day 1! :) Anyway, this has been life changing --- my whole attitude towards food is changing even though it's not always easy. I see how much "food" is not really food. It's scary to think of what the future health is for us Americans for sure the way it's going. Great post. You have a twin in the new PCPer's group --- Paul's posts are reminding me of yours! :)
ReplyDeletePowerful post. I have been flirting with numbness for far too long. I am looking for clarity. A clean body, a free mind. Thanks for your thought-provoking words!
ReplyDeleteI just read Paul's on your comment. It does sound a bit like me 45 days ago.
ReplyDeleteGeorge - Oshmans have the same jumprope I think you had. If you haven't ordered one yet (the Nike one right)? Thank you for the chicken cacciatore idea.. You're right - take out the salt and it is PCP friendly. See you this arvo. Keep it up.
ReplyDeleteat the risk of sounding very vain..i wanted to look good. but i also wanted a proper reason to kickstart an exercise into my daily routine. now its a bit more than that - a bit of so many different things.
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